Wednesday, June 06, 2007

Mother Needs Something Today to Calm Her Down

Another old photo from last year. Yeah, I suck.

So, here's kind of a weird thing. I think I experienced some anxiety today. I was all weird, and I had a burning feeling in the pit of my stomach and I was breathing shallowly and my shoulders were way up by my ears and worst of all, I was annoyingly needy. That's anxiety, right? It didn't seem to be related to anything specific. I even had it before I went to the mall this afternoon, which is normally a good cause for stress. Can I just feel anxious for no reason, or do I have to do some kind of past life regression thing to find out I'm actually remembering being burned at the stake in the 1600's?

I recall having it last Fall for a day or two, but since then, I've been okay. (about that particular issue, anyway) Because it appears to be gone now, and I'm a half-full kind of girl, I'm going to go ahead and assume it was the tail end of that funk I had last week and when I wake up tomorrow, I'll be perky and happy and bursting with life.

Just in case it does come back, what do people normally do to treat it? And please don't suggest I listen to CD's of crickets chirping, because insects make me tense. As far as I'm concerned, alcohol, drugs and sex usually make everything better, but will they work for anxiety? I'm thinking that maybe tomorrow, while all my neighbors are at work, I could break into a few houses and see what they have in their medicine cabinets. Surely, somebody somewhere on my block has some Valium, Vicodin or Xanax they're not using. Hell, even if it doesn't ever come back, it might be fun to see what I could make use of from my neighbor's medicine cabinets.

16 comments:

Remiman said...

Churlita,
I usually wallow in it 'til it gets tired of my ministrations and runs away of it's own accord.
A. D. S. are mutually exclusive for me....only one at a time and never together. ;-)
Sometimes a good backrub works.
rel

Babybull40 said...

How about a bubble bath and a glass of wine.. then raid the neighbours medicine cabinet..lol.. I have had that feeling too in the past.. Not to alrm you.. but it usually meant something not good was going to happen.. but that was just me..I haven't had that feeling since I left my ex-hubby...I use to get it all the time back in the day.. he was the main reason....I would think that it's the tail end of your funk that you were in last week..

Stepping Over the Junk said...

happens to me all the time. Happened to me last night when I was trying to sleep. And now today will be a very tired day. Except that it is a beach day and I think that will help me. The beach and People Magazine and my two little ones.

Heather Anne said...

Stop saying you suck! I like to revisit your pictures, okay? Okay.

booda baby said...

Well, cocktails and meds always help but then there's that ugly aftermath.

Me, I'm all about confronting it instantly and shifting my perspective. There's a bottom line on anxiety (for me). No one but me gets penalized for it and I've got way better things to be doing than being paralyzed in any way.

But that all depends on me believing there's a reason for the sensation and, so far, I've just been avoiding it. Maybe you ARE reliving being scorched on a stake.

dmarks said...

I had bouts with it a few months ago, and at other times. The head cold made it a lot worse.

A said...

oh thats anxiety? I just thought all those feelings were normal - Its nothing just that stake burning I"m sure
maybe try a jump in a pool - a swimming pool with water - that is -
A

fringes said...

Blogging about it helps me.

Poptart said...

Oh my; anxiety. I'm a little worried about you. Maybe because the girls are free and you have to go back to work tomorrow? If it was me, I would definitely go swimming, like A said, but maybe a run would help?

Drugs and substances, no matter what they are supposed to do, tend to work best when you know what the anxiety is about and they only dim it for a while anyway, you know?

Good luck and happy day off!

egan said...

Perhaps a trip to your nearest national park could be the perfect cure.

notfainthearted said...

The two actual anxiety attacks I've had felt like that, but it kept going until it also felt like a saint bernard sitting on my chest. Well, that was the first one.

The thing about them is that knowing one is coming on sometimes just escalates it faster.

Two things I found 1) a prescription for Ativan that I still carry around "just in case" because the feeling of being out of control is very um, anxiety filled. and

2) (This is the good one) practicing when I start to feel it coming on I say to myself, "Huh, seems like I"m anxious about something. Wonder what it is" and then take a little time to figure that out.

Sounds corny and lame but I've only had to take 3 of those Ativan over the last 4+ years since the first episode.

Oh, and the answer to one of your questions is YES there is such a thing as 'free floating anxiety' and it's exactly that. Not tied directly to any particular event, person or fear. Just a combination of lots of stuff.

Good luck, sister!

l.b. said...

It does sound like free floating anxiety. Hits me every once in a while, too. Just at odd times and not seemingly connected to anything.
Sometimes for me, just being aware of what I'm feeling and that it is, in fact, not connected to anything outside of my own head helps me.

evil-e said...

Wow, that is some remedy you came up with. After the medicine cabinets then the liquor cabinets. That'll cure what ails ya.

I agree, listening to stupid crickets or water noises does nothing but annoy. You need to throw on Sabbath Volume 4 or Led Zeppelin 3 after the neighbor house raids. That'll take the edge off.

Churlita said...

Rel,

A back rub would be perfect.

Babybull40,

Yeah. I don't know what causes it. I hope it doesn't mean something bad is going to happen.

Stepping,

Man, I wish I had a beach handy.

Heather Anne,

Okay. Sorry.

Booda Baby,

I have been feeling a little warmish lately.

Dmarks,

How did you get over it?

A,

I just bought pool passes for me and the girls. Now all it has to do is get warmer outside.

Fringes,

Writing definitely helped me too.

Poptart,

You're right. Popping pills seems so much easier though.

Egan,

I'm not even sure where the nearest national park is in Iowa.

Notfainthearted,

Thanks for all the info. We'll have to see how it goes.

LB,

I just wish I could get it out of my head.

Evil-E,

Oooh, maybe Sabbath is the ticket.

TLB said...

I got a lot of those trying to finish the novel. They tended to go away after 5-6 hours, until my agent would call again and demand to know when the hell I was going to finish.

If you get them really often, you should talk to a doctor. If it's just once in a while, don't think it's a big deal.

Churlita said...

TLB,

Your anxiety sounds very real and specific. I wish mine was so specific so that I didn't have to worry about it coming back.