Wednesday, September 08, 2010

All Alright

Here is G's jacket.

Today I made a ton of food after I got back from running. Stinky was at her youth group most of the evening, so I had the house to myself again. Tonight I listened to Sigur Ros and even though I could have used some more counter space, I was still so appreciative of the kitchen in my cozy little cottage.

When I went to deliver said food to friends, D. asked me how I was doing and I could honestly answer that I was really happy. The last month or so has been amazing for me. Of course, that doesn't mean that I don't get down or lonely, but overall, I am quite content...Actually, ridiculously hopeful is more accurate. I've been good about staying away from the few people who were playing games or particularly judgmental/disdainful of me and that has made a huge difference. My time is well spent on my supportive, kind friends and family members.

I miss Coadster, but she seems really happy where she is. I just hope she's thriving, even if that means I don't get the pleasure of seeing her every day. So far this year, Stinky has been doing really well too. She had a rough start to last year. She made some big mistakes, but she seems to be learning from them and trying really hard. She actually tells me when she has tests and asks me to help her study. First trimester of last year, I'd ask her about tests and she'd give me some vague answer to get me off her back. I try to let her know how proud I am of her as often as possible.

Since last year I have gone through so many transitions and so much change...And even though they have mostly been positive, any change can be a little stressful. I just feel like right now, at this moment, it's nice to breathe, look around and appreciate my bounty. As I know all too well, everything can change by the time I wake up tomorrow. But right now? Right now I'm happy.


rel said...

So happy you're happy!!

laura b. said...

You and your girls deserve every happiness. It makes me feel happy and hopeful to read of it.

Ananda girl said...

Being happy is a wonderful thing! I am glad for you and your girls.

SkylersDad said...

This is great news, everybody needs more happy in their lives.

Susan said...

I am happy that you are happy!

Churlita said...

Rel, Thanks. I know it's impossible to stay this way, but I plan on appreciating it while I have it.

LauraB., Thank you Laura. All we can do is keep trying and some days will be good and some will be bad. But at least the bad ones will make us more thankful of the good.

Ananda, I'm just trying to let the good times roll, is all. :)

Skyler's, It's a constant struggle for that, isn't it?

Suan, Thanks. I hope you're happy too...Didn't DAvid Bowie say that?