Wednesday, December 30, 2009

It's Time For a Few Small Repairs, She Said

Here is a fairly unflattering photo of A. and myself at my college graduation party in December of 1990.

So, kids. I got over my whateverthehellitwas from last night. I think it was a weird combination of the end of the year approaching, Winter, a full moon, and me suddenly not working towards anything major. You know? I was thinking about what the hell my problem was and why I seemed so weird and lonely and fatalistic last night. And I think some of it was that I was done working toward my house. I'd been doing that since the end of September and every week there was another hurdle to jump and I was so distracted with all of it, that when it was done and I had the house and Christmas was over, I experienced a little let-down. I was done working on the acquisition, it was mine and I was in it. I suppose there was a lot of internal stuff I ignored by being so caught up in my external nesting struggle. For me, I feel so much better knowing why I'm spazzing, because then I can work on fixing it. Whew! Now, I guess that means I have to take a little time to examine my head and make sure things get balanced up there. I could be busy with that for a long, long time...

My friend A. was up from Texas tonight. It was so great to see her. She lived with me when I was pregnant with Coadster and then lived in an apartment right across from us, the first year of Coadster's life. Now her boys are in kindergarten and 3rd grade. it's amazing how fast time flies. We had a great visit, and watched the boys play with Legos and ask them questions about their lives. They are such great, fun kids. I'm so sad that I don't get to see them very often. A.'s husband might do RAGBRAI in the Summer with his brothers, so I'm hoping they come back up again for that.

Okay. it's late and I better try to get some shut-eye. I hope you all have a wonderful New Year's Eve. Feel free to tell me how you plan to spend it in the comments.

7 comments:

Remiman said...

Churlita,
I'm glad your feeling better.
I'm on call tonight.
rel

Not Fainthearted said...

glad you've figured out the funkiness. I agree that knowing the "why" helps even when it doesn't magically make it disappear. Be gentle with yourself.

Wishing you all the best in 2010!!!
NFH

Ananda girl said...

Have a wonderful evening Churlita... and I wish you all the best in 2010!

Be safe.

laura b. said...

Always wonderful to reconnect with long time friends. Also great to get to the "why" of certain feelings.
Tonight, DR and I care just going to celebrate on our own at home.
Happy 2010!

sissy said...

I always liked Ann. She is a nice, funny girl! I am glad you were able have some time to visit and show off your new fancy house!

SkylersDad said...

Have a great 2010, Kathy, Skyler and I are doing the Resolution Run tonight. It is an old 5K that has been around for years, it is a lot of fun!

Mnmom said...

Some days are like that, then they disappear as mysteriously as they came. I'm having one today.