G. came over to help us decorate our tree and set Ironman straight about a few things.My mantra lately is "I'm tired". I say it over and over again in my head. I'm sure I've even accidentally said it aloud a few times when I was really feeling it. (yes, I've become THAT crazy lady who walks around muttering to herself). I have no one to blame but myself. I want to be superhuman and be able to do 50 hours worth of work and fun and running in 24. It's ridiculous.
On Sunday afternoon, I finally had a mini-meltdown. I was trying to clean and cook and get things ready for the tree to make the holidays special for the girls. Of course, all of that self-imposed stress, just made me cranky and I could see I was going to make the holidays "special" in all the wrong ways for my daughters. Dumb ass.
Stinky and G. showcasing our little tree. It smells incredible.So, since I can't turn around however many years of fuckedupedness in my overachieving, too hard on myself personality and just slow down, I decided to give myself a gift instead. I'm going to use one of my mandatory unpaid furlough days this Wednesday. I plan on using it to sleep in a little, paint my room, go for a nice long run outside, and do the Christmas shopping we didn't get done this Saturday. I'm already feeling a million times better just knowing it's coming up. So, tomorrow is a mini-Friday. Merry Christmas to me!
10 comments:
Good for you! Moving is stressful and painting is stressful and Christmas is stressful. It's no wonder you're tired! Enjoy your day off.
PS I lurv the paint in your living room! It looks great! I also love those sisal(?) rugs. Very cozy indeed.
Way to step back and see the big picture. It is a stressful time of year under ideal circumstances, but any number of things can compound that sensation. Enjoy your bonus day off!
And I love your tree...and the models are adorable.
Churlita,
I'm getting worried: Everyday you're getting smarter and smarter! ;)
rel
Good for you for taking time for yourself!
step away from the stress....
You have totally earned that day off!
That's a great tree, I miss being able to buy live ones.
And I'm glad that Ironman is getting a lecture from your friend.
Great plan! You have been so busy that you certainly have earned a day off.
Wow first Christmas tree in your house... woot!
Ah, how I used to enjoy my midweek weekends (feel free to use that term for yourself). The first time I decorated my Christmas tree in my living room, it felt so good.
Take a day off and relax and enjoy yourself.
Awesome and good for you. When you are going 100 million miles an hour, you need a day like that. Enjoy your day tomorrow.
Jeci,
Thanks so much. I'm actually covered in primer even as I'm writing this.
LauraB.,
I will. I can't tell you how happy it's made me.
Rel,
Don't get too worried. I just don't write about all of the dumb things I do because nobody has that much time to read...
Skyler's DAd,
Thanks. I'm so ready for that time.
Pamela,
...Or run away...
Tara,
Why can't you have a real one>
Ananda,
I know. I love all the good firsts in my new house.
AlienCG,
Those midweek weekends are the best and what a great name for them.
Mr Manuel,
I'm excited to slow down to 90 miles per hour.
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