Hey, lookee there. It's my astrological sign - the crab. (shut-up)
So, by the time most of you read this, it will be my birthday. I know last year I talked a lot about not being afraid to tempt the fates by being unabashedly happy. I think this year, I've been trying to work on not letting the bad things in life bring me down. Not that I shouldn't let myself feel negative emotions, but I shouldn't the bad stuff in life overwhelm the good. Good should always win out, right? I do try to work on this in general, but I have noticed some people in their forties get bitter and stop trying, because they don't think things can work out anyway, and I don't want to be like that. So, if I get rejected or I'm not as good at something as I'd like, but I have fun doing it, I'm going to keep trying and I'm going to do whatever it is anyway.
So, with that in mind, my 4 day birthday weekend looks like this: in the morning I'm going running. In the afternoon I'm going to learn how to kayak. I'm planning on tipping it over a few times but it seems like the kind of thing I'll like once I get the hang of it. In the evening, I'm meeting friends at the Dublin. (Really? Weird) The Girl Crush is even coming, so I'm extra special excited.
On Saturday afternoon both my girls will finally be available to play. I think we're going out for lunch and a matinee as soon as Stinky gets off work.
Sunday I want to go on a long bike ride and then I'll try to go to a BBQ for a friend who is visiting from China. She used to work at the Mill with me, so most of the people there I've known since I was 19.
On Monday, I'm going to try and work on house projects and run and play, if there's time.
So, I'll keep trying new things and keep putting myself out there as a friend, as a writer, as a runner and as a whatever and if I get rejected, I'll dust myself off and keep at it. Why not? Like I tell my girls...We don't get do-overs in life, but we do get right nows. So, starting right now, I'll be kicking my fear of failure/mediocrity's ass.