It's been a weird year for me so far. It started out just fine, but the sometime in the Summer, things started to go South. With anything, it's never all good or all bad, but for me, starting around June, things got pretty damn bad.
In the early part of the year, I hardly had any migraines and I was feeling strong running and riding my bike. Sure, the Winter was pretty brutal, but I felt good, and I was coping just fine. In June I started having little migraines all the time and I just couldn't ride or run or do any of the things that help me deal with stress.
In July things calmed down some. I didn't have any migraines, and we went on the best vacation I've ever been on...And the when we go back, things really went to shit. I had a horrible Summer cold, and then we had bad family issues come up, and then I had a migraine for over a month straight. In the past two weeks, I took my car in to get my oil changed, and I ended up having to spend over $500 for new tires, and my daughters' cousin apparently killed himself by jumping in the Mississippi River.
Things are hard, but they aren't impossible, and they aren't the worst they've ever been. At least I had the money to buy my new tires, even a few years ago, I wouldn't have. I talked with both of the girls about their cousin. They were both very upset and I checked in with Coadster to make sure she's been taking her anti-depressants, and she has been. My migraines have also calmed down quite a bit, and the other family problem we're having we'll deal with and support each other the best we can. I know I'm lucky to have a supportive family and daughters who call me to help talk them down when they're upset. I am also very lucky to have John who is one of the most empathetic people I have ever met.
I'm hoping things get better at the end of this decade, and through the new one. I'll just continue to feel gratitude for all of the good things, and to be supportive and ask for support when things get rough. It might be another hard Winter, but I am very lucky to have warm clothes and a car to function in it. I also bought a ton of epsom salt bubble bath, some good books, chamomile tea and I have fun movies to watch to help me to relax through the stressful times. Comfort and escapism is my favorite cocktail in the Winter. I'll just keep trying to take care of myself and my people and pets, and be ever hopeful. Speaking of which, I hope things are going better for all you all.
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I hope for you to have a much improved future.
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